so i got lots of texts yesterday and emails asking "what's going on??!"
i guess i was making people nervous or being dramatic?
or keep it to myself too often that when i explode people get nervous?
i think people were worried.
it's all ok...it's just HARD....and i wish it wasn't so hard most of the time.
but i got it all out in writing here yesterday and felt so much better almost immediately.
God gave me another day to try again.
thankful for that.

we made chocolate chip cookies. (best recipe ever)
a double batch.
and it was like yummy therapy. :)
then i took the four youngest who were off of school to a movie.
and freddys for dinner.
it was good to get out of the house.

still liking this book a lot.
i am about halfway through....it is very interesting writing...i am so curious to see where it leads.

i had a happy box on my porch.
it's about time i got on board with this company.
what has taken me so long....seriously?
i am a convert.
love them and want to get some more already.

good thing we gave waffle that bath.....

watching talby play volleyball this past weekend made me realize how very tall and grown up she is getting!
right before my eyes.
and she was the only one with out knee pads... #parentfail

speaking of growing up... holy cows.
i don't get the hair but i understand the need to make your choices and have a "style" you like.
i am not sure what that is...but he does and so i am not making a big deal.
he looks good in black and red though.

i am a sucker for good marketing that is visually awesome.
and this is.
old navy you have great designers.
i want every color.
(except purple...no thank you)

this morning i printed out my pdf files from CLEAN MAMA and i am ready to get organized.
i love that she has the jobs written out already.
that was a huge for me.
i get so overwhelmed with chores and cleaning and keeping up at my house.
so becky has all kinds of ways to help me get organized and doing it such a cute and colorful way!!!
thank you Clean Mama for getting my life together!
okie dokie....
i am off to get my hair did.
and go to the bank
and the walmart.
and high school volleyball games tonight.
thank you for the hundreds of encouraging "you are not alone" comments and emails and texts.
THANK YOU.
i felt lifted up in prayer and in friendship.
i felt heard.
i can be open and honest here and not be attacked.
i am so grateful for that.
and my husband teased me about the mama grizzly. :)
but it's TRUE!!!