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whoa... just a little rain.

so yesterday while we were at the indoor pool it was raining again for the fourth day (? i think) in a row.
but it was REALLY raining hard.
 
i decided we needed to go home becuase of the creeper couple that came to the hotel pool and was not going to stop making out even if we were in the room. 

driving home was NUTS.
everything was flooded.
my kids were yelling and so excited!  
Annie yelled "THIS IS AWESOME!!!!"
i yelled back "NO THIS IS NOT AWESOME! EVERYONE CHILL OUT! I NEED TO DRIVE SO WE DON'T CRASH!"

i don't think i had ever driven in that kind of rain?!

we made it home and so did Mr. Duerksen...on a sand road?!

but then after dinner we went out to look around and this was our road!

in the middle of that is a deep creek... so there was no driving through that.

we messed around a little while in the shallow side of it.

then we decided we should probably go to the Craft House out the other way in case we got more rain that night and the other creek would flood.
better to be out than stuck.

so everyone rushed around to grab clothes and snacks and games to entertain ourselves.
we fed the chickens and kitties.
we loaded in the car.
we were drenched from the rain.

it took us probably 20 minutes to get out the door.

i backed out of our driveway... drove 20 feet.... too late.

the other end of the road was as deep or deeper.

oh my.
we were trapped in our own home.

we went inside, soaking wet and bummed out and then decided to make the best of it.

we watched Home Alone and ate ice cream sundaes.
i mean... that is the logical thing to do?!

in the morning the creek had receded back off the road but still up to the tippy top of the bridge.
we were able to get out for the day and everything is fine.

such an adventure!

i love it!

but now we know that if we need to get out... we need to BE QUICK.
it was a good lesson. 

 

 

super short little phone video.
annie was told she could go about 10 feet but she thought i said it was 10 feet deep.
it was... just not where she was.

now i am ready for a little sunshine.
it IS summer ya know???

i thought we'd spend everyday at the pool till school starts!

change is fun too i guess.

imagine all the frogs and turtles we'll find now!

i can't wait.

 

 

selfies.

(that is a half eaten blueberry btw... not poop)

the chickens liked the blueberries i gave them last night.

:)

to get shots like this i turn my phone to self portrait.
then i turn it towards them and they can't resist getting in there to see what that is....

it's so funny.

this summer.

dudes....this summer is crazy.

i don't know what i did other years?

how did we do craft thursday?

how did i get anything done?

who is this person i have become????

that is how i am feeling everyday.  it's getting old.

i miss that lady who made cookies and painted pictures and sewed late at night.

she needs to come back.

i really miss that girl.

this busy, tired, scattered, zoned out person who is living in my head needs to leave. 

 

these pictures have nothing to do with that little pity party.

these are the cows across the road from our front door.
i love to watch them wander around that field.
this day i was sunbathing while all my kids were gone for ONE WHOLE HOUR and there they were.
just chillin' at the only opening that i can get to for pictures.

i have this little voice in me that says "that is the picture you want... take it"
and for so long in my life i have ignored it.
there are lots of reasons i ignore it.
sometimes there are people with me and i don't want to stand out or have someone think "what is she doing?"
sometimes i don't have the right camera for the good shot.
sometimes i am driving and can't stop.
but about a year ago i promised myself that when i hear that voice i will do whatever i can to get the shot.

not wreck my car or anything but if im not running late than i will pull over and get it.
or i just let people wonder why i am taking a picture of something at Target.
because my mind works like that.

i can see the photo in my mind and it feels so good when i get it.

and i like that.



so.... i was lying there... in my swim suit... one hour alone... reading my book... and there come the cows.
i heard the voice.
i said "BUT.... but... it's my only hour"
sigh.

i got up and put on a skirt and flip flops and my big camera and into the ditch to see the cows.

i am so glad i did.

i am ALWAYS glad i did.

and a lot of times it's not a super AMAZING photo but it's really just the process of looking through the lens.
finding the focus.
catching the light.

 

and i guess on these jammed packed days that send me to bed exhausted, i need that little moment.

a reminder that i am creative...created to be creative.
it's in there.
and sometimes i don't get to it as often as i would like but it doesn't go away.

 

moo.